During CLAW this past weekend, I had a chance to sit in on a number of sessions related to the philosophy of D/s relationships including Sir/boy and Master/slave dynamics.

In short, I wrote the following on Facebook reflecting on my time at CLAW: “Some people really don’t get Master/slave relations at all. It’s not about breaking down, it’s about building up.”

There is considerably more on my mind about Master/salve dynamics that I get the impression that people simply just don’t get it.

I am writing from the perspective of having spent time as a slave for four out of the eight years of the relationship I have with Master Chuck.

Let’s address my comment on Facebook.  The Master/slave dynamic, just like the Sir/boy dynamic, is about building someone up to be the best person they are, to create value in the person and to inspire confidence.  It’s not about tearing someone down and creating clones of either yourself or the perfect man.  It’s not about breaking someone – per se.  If there is a bad behaviour going on, you obviously want to take control of that and get it turned around.  That said, if you see someone blossoming as they serve you, why would you try to tear that down?

A question came up during the weekend, and I am sure it came up several times, between what is the difference between a boy and a slave? This is somewhat of a loaded question because what may look like Sir/boy to me, may be defined as Master/slave; and potentially vice versa – what looks like Master/slave to me, may actually be defined as Sir/boy – and I can think of several examples within the Sir/boy and Master/slave communities where this applies.

For me, what defines the difference between boy and slave is the level of deference and servitude given to the dominant.  It’s not about losing my identity and completely changing everything about myself to match being the perfect submissive for my Master.  If we were all clones of each other, that would be pretty boring.

As a boy, there are certain freedoms that I have that I normally would not have as a slave – and being the type of boy (and even as slave), I would often test and sometimes cross the lines of those boundaries in appropriately, and it was dealt with.  That said, there are always consequences to actions and what may get a boy into a lighter level of trouble, may get a slave in to a deeper level of trouble.  The key thing is, the relationship is defined between Master and slave, and typically with a contract – which provides and ensures clarity on the expected behaviours.

I have a further concern about submissives not being heard within the various seminars as observed by my own experiences, and the experiences of others at CLAW, and specifically the potential opinions of slaves being dismissed.  To be clear, I am not criticizing CLAW, I’m using CLAW as the example because it is the most recent event I attended.  Incidentally, as a side note, CLAW rocked this year – please do consider attending next year

W/we – as a community; W/we – as people who are hungry for information about “how to do” D/s and Master/slave; WE ARE MISSING 50% of the information from some of the wisest people in Master/slave dynamics – the slaves themselves – who often know just as much about relationship dynamics as their dominant counterparts, especially those who have been in D/s relationships for a long time.  I know this is a deep a concern for my partner’s Alpha Slave.

One of the biggest helpers on my journey to becoming Master Chuck’s slave six years ago was reading Jack Rinella’s “Becoming a slave”, and hearing the various anecdotes of Jack’s slave, Patrick.  It helped to shape an aspect of who I was as a slave, and who I am as a boy.  It also allowed for not only a top-down approach to my training but also a bottom-up approach if you will, creating a well-rounded healthy approach to voluntary servitude – which is really what the Master/slave dynamic really is – anyone can walk away at any time.  Without Patrick’s perspective, I would only have the dominant’s perspective.

I am concerned about the Master who, reportedly, said that he didn’t need to apologize to his slave.  I can guarantee you that if Master Chuck did not apologize for mistakes He has made at times that I would no longer be His submissive – just as if I did not take responsibility for my actions when I have stepped out of line, I would no longer be His submissive.  I recognize that Master Chuck is human as am I, and as such, it is human nature to err.

I sure hope that the slave that did speak their mind when asked, saying that they would appreciate hearing the occasional apology from their Master, was not chastised (emotionally, mentally or physical) but appreciated otherwise we are talking about emotional, mental and potentially physical abuse – and that is not something our community takes lightly.  Instead, I hope it brought Master and slave closer together and has tightened a potentially beautiful bond.

If I were a first time attendee at an event where, as a submissive, I was considering putting together some form of presentation for a future year, based on some of the observations I have made, along with others within my Leather family, I would be questioning it.   Thankfully, I have had other experiences where seminars I have presented have been well attended, despite being a submissive – which, I know, early on was actually a concern for me.

Over the past two years of attending CLAW, I have noticed that seminars that are oriented towards covering D/s relationships tend to be organized by dominants:

• Sirs and boys created by Sir John Krikorian – 2010 and 2011
• Transition from BDSM to Master/slave by Master Taino – 2010 and 2011
• boys in the Leather Community by Jim Raymond – 2010

No disrespect meant to those showing leadership by putting together these seminars because we need to discuss these topics.  That said, I would love to challenge my submissive brothers and sisters – however you may identify – slave, boy, pup, cub, etc… to step up to the plate and put together a series of seminars focused on the submissive side of relationships, but open to everyone.  Specifically, I would love to see a seminar on “The slave’s perspective on M/s relationships.”

I would also love to see a new generation step up to the plate to talk about these topics.  Again, no disrespect towards those who have educating us for years, but I cannot help but wonder if we need to hear a new set of voices sharing themselves and their experiences, and I think some of those who have been educating us, might love a chance to sit back and see some of the fruits of their labour of love.

So those are my insights and thoughts.  While I may no longer be in a Master/slave dynamic, I am still passionate about ensuring people understand what the M/s dynamic actually is and what it is not.  It is a beautiful dynamic.

Firstly, I’d like to thank all the dead people who helped me to practice
my speech for the International LeatherSIR/Leatherboy competition in San Francisco.  boy ian, Eastern Canada Leatherboy 2010 and International Leatherboy 2010 invited me over to his work – a funeral home – to practice my speech.  Thanks!

Thank You to Master Chuck for being not only my Sir of 8 years but also
TitleSIR for the past year, and for putting up with me.

Brandon and Dan – thank you for being who you are within the community and for your work on ECLSb, Rough House and for being the best producers of any LeatherSIR/Leatherboy competition.

To my partner Master Scott, who dealt with the long periods of me being
away as I traveled not only with the title but often with a work trip
taking place just before or after a title trip.

To my brothers in Master Chuck’s Leather Family who stood by us, thank you for listening to me gripe about things I was seeing in my travels however there are three individuals who I want to specifically recognize and I’d like you to come up to the stage when I call your name

• slave Eric, for everything that he does to help keep Sir organized which benefits all of us and has done for many years.
• my former boy matt, North American Bootblack 2008, for looking after Sir’s Leathers, for being a guide as I looked after my own Leathers, and for putting us up during O/our first trip
• Sir David for helping Sir and I be prepared at CLAW and Mr. Leather Ottawa.  We could not have survived those weekends without Your assistance Sir
• slave Joe for helping Sir and I during ILSb and Western Canada LeatherSIR, and even this weekend – and also for being one of my mentors.

Now let’s talk about the year -

• Firstly, the titleholder curse did make an appearance – as a boy I have done more topping this year at play parties than I have bottoming.  That said, I’m not complaining and I’m not going to say that this needs to change – after all, why shouldn’t boys top and why should subs receive all the pleasure? *GRIN*  There’s nothing hotter than being ordered to top.
• There were new lows (259lbs – first time in 15 years) and highs (282lbs)
• I never thought I’d ever be tied up with people trying to bat a ball at my nuts, which happened at CLAW.
• Who knew that all eyes would be on Sir and me as Sir kicked and stomped me at ILSb as I yelled, “FUCK YOU!”.  As Dan tweeted – “His voice said fuck you, his eyes say more please Sir”.
• Most importantly I’ve been able to branch out and explore new kinds of play
• More bondage!
• Rubber sleep sacks
• Edging and straight jackets
• Electro!
• I have become much more of a boot man and boy, and have an appreciation for all kinds of boots.

• We travelled a lot – together and separate
• Sudbury
• North Bay
• Detroit
• Erie
• Cleveland
• Ottawa
• Chicago
• Calgary
• San Francisco
• Portland among the other destinations I hit for work and personal reasons.

• We did a lot
• Judged MI LSb
• Attended CLAW and assisted with their fundraisers
• Co-hosted Kink in the City – A fundraiser for Toronto PWA Foundation
• Crude Weekend – Kicked up The Point
• Toroto Pride – And showed Toronto what Leather was all about – and they lapped it up.  Kudos to Reuters!
• Toronto Leather Pride – Saw one of the largest attendances of any seminar
• Tease – Where we showed who we are to the pan community, eager to learn
• M Cuir Ottawa/Mr Leather Ottawa- Paying homage to my old stomping grounds
• American Brother Hood Weekend – Putting a Canadian face to Leather
• Judging Western Canada LeatherSIR/boy and promoting Canadian unity and brotherhood
• And somewhere in there was a small contest called International
• LeatherSir/boy where people seem to have completely forgotten the concept of cowboy movies. *GRIN*
• Most importantly I re-found my voice in teaching in our community and I appreciate Master Chuck standing by me during the seminars that we presented.

This has been the year of great personal growth, fun, good thinking and
some interesting play.

If there is one piece of advice I have to our new titleholders, is be who
you are and don’t pander to someone else’s image.  Not only do we have our own Canadian-way of ‘doing’ Leather which is recognized – the number of times people from the US commented on how relaxed we are with our community protocols was astounding. *GRIN*

As I come to a close, I want to point out – we’re not going away:

• There are still many kinky folk out there hungry for information and for hot play
• This is a title circuit I still believe in
• Kink in the City 2 is coming up on July 14th
• Revenge of the Subs is coming in March (MUHUHUHU!)
• And I am involved with So You Want To Be Kinky

Thank you all for your support over the past year.  That’s it.